An excerpt from a blog post I wrote in 2014 after the birth of my second set of twins. I was scared of taking care of so many little children and wrote myself a letter to help during the hard days.
Taking care of children,10 kids in my case, is taxing for anyone. Here’s what I do to stay sane and still enjoy my children!
Over the past decade of being a mother, I’ve learned there’s only one thing that really matters, not the numerous things we tell ourselves!
I remember how hard it was when I first became a mother, I neglected myself so much it was causing my baby and husband to be unhappy. If I could go back and talk to that mother, this is what I’d say.
Emotions are a weird thing. I can be just fine then I’ll see something or hear or read something and I’m crying like a baby.
He scanned over for a second then took off the wand and asked, “Did we know there’s twins in there?”
So here I am, caught in a mind battle. The wish to be grateful, patient, and peaceful mixed with the raw emotions of wanting my outward appearance to match how I see myself in my head.
As a mother of (many) children, my mind is constantly thinking 5 steps ahead and often times I get stuck in those steps and forget the people I’m doing it all for.
Because of all this I’m reminded again and again how important family is and even if it’s hard work, it’s all worth it. Also when life gets hard, take a deep breath and hold on because there’s usually something good around the corner!
I started wanting a big family because that’s what I knew and what brought me joy, but I still feel like it’s best for us because it helps give my children more friendship, love, and confidence.
