Jacob talks about some of the issues he is dealing with, and the emotional roller-coaster involved with life and feeling like you haven’t become the person you think you should be.
Taking a look back to a very memorable Black Friday, but not for happy reasons. and when you have a bad day early on, there’s no where to go but up!
Cassanda sat me down and said something like this, “Jacob, I’m not going to make it. I can’t do this anymore, I really need more help from you.” I thought for a second and responded, “Cassanda, I would love to help more, but I have absolutely nothing left.”
Ever since I was a young lad, I have been terrified of the garbage disposal, especially when I had to put my hand down it to fish something out.
I had an occasion where I needed a comb, didn’t have one, but did have a 3D printer available, why bother buying a comb when you can make one instead.
Remember those times when you walk out into the swamp in your backyard. You get up in the morning and walk into the kitchen to the sound of the water on somewhere, except that somewhere is in the backyard, and you don’t know how long the water has been on. I’ve found a simple solution.
I thought, I’m fine, I can handle it, until the suicidal thoughts began. I mainly felt that I needed to get away from everyone, so as not to be a burden on them, I thought that if I could go out into the wilderness somewhere, that everyone would be free from my presence and then they could all be happy. When not in a depressed state, that seems silly, but when you are depressed, it is very real.
I, like my wife Cassanda, have 10 kids, 2 sets of twins, 9 boys and 1 girl, all born within 10 years.