My body is amazing to have 10 kids in 10 years! And yet I still have a hard time with it not being what I’d like it to be. Maybe if I were to choose to love my body like I do others around me.
We had other times when we wondered how we could manage with another baby but none so intense as after our second child.
Here’s that story and how we eventually had 10 kids.
An excerpt from a blog post I wrote in 2014 after the birth of my second set of twins. I was scared of taking care of so many little children and wrote myself a letter to help during the hard days.
Over the past decade of being a mother, I’ve learned there’s only one thing that really matters, not the numerous things we tell ourselves!
I remember how hard it was when I first became a mother, I neglected myself so much it was causing my baby and husband to be unhappy. If I could go back and talk to that mother, this is what I’d say.
Emotions are a weird thing. I can be just fine then I’ll see something or hear or read something and I’m crying like a baby.
So here I am, caught in a mind battle. The wish to be grateful, patient, and peaceful mixed with the raw emotions of wanting my outward appearance to match how I see myself in my head.
As a mother of (many) children, my mind is constantly thinking 5 steps ahead and often times I get stuck in those steps and forget the people I’m doing it all for.
I started wanting a big family because that’s what I knew and what brought me joy, but I still feel like it’s best for us because it helps give my children more friendship, love, and confidence.
Sometimes life seems so big and overwhelming and your not sure how you’ll ever make it through. But that’s why God gave us our loved ones, whether it’s a spouse, a family member, or a friend.