Monday, January 10, 2022
It felt like a close call, but I survived my first colonoscopy! It was just preemptive, as my brother found precancerous polyps in his and it was suggested his siblings get one to make sure. The prep yesterday was for sure the worst part, only a liquid diet and drinking 64 oz of MiraLAX Gatorade plus some other laxatives in a short amount of time.
I was so nervous that I was going to do something wrong and they wouldn’t let me do it today, but make me do it all over again on another day. People thought I was being overly worried, but it almost happened! My colon wasn’t cleared out as much as they would’ve liked, so the nurse had to get her supervisor and then the doctor to see if it would be ok to continue or if I’d need to reschedule for tomorrow. Thankfully the doctor was great and we went for it.
And just as we suspected, everything looks good! It gives us peace of mind to know for sure, and now I don’t have to worry about it for another 10 years!
Tuesday, January 11, 2022
I don’t know why I always think that at some point I’m going to have it all together. That I’ll have my mental, physical, and emotional health good and strong.
I’m just right now realizing, that will never happen. There will always be something I need to work on, some thing that is lacking and that I’m learning.
That’s life right!? To learn and grow.
And how can we learn if everything is comfortable and familiar? We can’t. To learn and grow we need to be stretched, fail, and overcome. If everything’s perfect, there’s nothing to overcome.
So today was a good mental health day for me. I was able to be silly, compassionate, intuitive, flexible, patient, caring. When I’m depressed, I’m lucky to maybe get one of those. So we went to the park and had a lot of fun, we played games, and I gave a lot of hugs and snuggles.
But physically I was exhausted! I felt nauseous this morning and then needed to take a 2 hour pre-nap before my regular nap time. Thankfully my parents just happened to be visiting and played with the kids while I rested. I didn’t get to work out because of these things which makes me sad…but I felt like a present mother!
All of this to say, and remind myself:
You will never have it all together; you were never meant to!
This is just a part of life, there will always be something missing, something more to learn and develop.
But the secret to living a happy life is to be grateful for what your given in the moment and make the most out of it. Today wasn’t a good day to strengthen my body, but it was a great day to strengthen my relationships. Everything will come around and even itself out, if we are open and looking for it.
Wednesday, January 12, 2022
I felt good enough to do some self care AND be a more present and flexible mom! 🙌🏼
Which is good because we just got an email saying our district is going to do at-home learning for two school days starting on Friday, in hopes of stopping the spread of this ever lasting virus! I haven’t had the greatest time doing at home learning, but I’m hoping with my new medication I’ll be able to be more patient and have a clear head to know how to best tackle the day. 🤞🏼💪🏼👊🏼
Thursday, January 13, 2022
My favorite part of today was tonight when William came back into our room, when he should’ve been in bed, to tell me about the change he made to the fort on his bed.
As he was leaving I said, “I love you!”
“I know!” was all he replied as he turned and left to go back to bed. He said it so matter of fact, and my heart burst with joy.
I believe one of the best things I can do for my children is to help them know they are loved. When you think about it, people who feel truly loved, most likely, live happy successful lives. I’m so glad that at least for right now, William knows that he is deeply loved in our family! ❤️
Friday, January 15, 2022
Sister’s Weekend! We came to Vegas to see our brother and brother-in-law and are having so much fun laughing, eating treats, chatting, and more laughing. And we’re just getting started! 🙌🏼🥳💃
The kids are in good hands with Jacob, and I know they’ll have a great time. Thanks to Jacob’s parents for bringing dinner, so we know for sure the kids got fed at least once this weekend. (His words, not mine. 😉😄)
*And we all decided to wear our matching Waco shirts from our sibling trip to Texas a couple years ago. Because we’re cool like that! 😉😎
Saturday, January 16, 2022
What a fun exhausting day in Las Vegas! We went to the Bellagio, plus a handful of other hotels/casinos/shops, ate a lot of good food at a buffet, rested a bit, and ended the day at the amazing show, Beatles Love Cirque Du Soleil!
I feel so grateful to be part of a family that feels more like friends! 🥰