Surviving Anxiety

I thought, I’m fine, I can handle it, until the suicidal thoughts began.  I mainly felt that I needed to get away from everyone, so as not to be a burden on them, I thought that if I could go out into the wilderness somewhere, that everyone would be free from my presence and then they could all be happy.  When not in a depressed state, that seems silly, but when you are depressed, it is very real.